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Monday, 21 September 2009

  • Daily Dose of Him

    Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you. - Deut. 31:61

    This is my verse for the day, and probably for the rest of the week as we go about things here at the "Z" household.



Monday, 24 August 2009

  • I will not be moved...

    I will stumble. I will fall down; but I will not be moved.
    I will make mistakes. I will face heartache; but I will not be moved...


    Those lyrics are taken from a song by Natalie Grant (I Will Not Be Moved) and I was listening to this tonight and felt the Holy Spirit convict me. Indulge this tired woman as I explain.

    Raised in the church, I remember the old hymn, I Shall Not Be Moved, and sang it often. I know that He is there, that Christ is the Solid Rock on which we stand firm. I know the parable of the man who built his house on the rock and the one who built his house on the sand. I know all this.

    But tonight I felt slow in my weak human mind as the Holy Spirit showed me that knowing something on the surface and really understanding are two very different things.

    The Holy Spirit showed me quite a bit about being moved...

    When that crazy driver cut me off and then proceeded to yell at me in his rearview mirror (though he was the one driving like a madman) I have been moved to anger.

    When the lady in front of me at the grocery line decided that she had 100 coupons for each item and I just wanted to get out that I have been moved to impatience.

    When the people behind me at the same grocery store waited for me to get through with my monthly shopping I have been moved to embarrassment.

    When family shut me out and then rubbed it in I have been moved to jealousy.

    When my house was a mess and I got overwhelmed I have been moved to anxiety or laziness (depending on if any of the above had happened that day).

    When I had to repeat the same thing to my children for the fifth time in one day (pick up that toy...put your dishes in sink...etc.) I have been moved to frustration.

    Et cetera, et cetera, et cetera...

    Yeah.

    Poisonous fruits. Bitter fruits. Rotten fruits.

    It's amazing, really, that one could live almost 40 years and still not fully understand. You can sing the words and believe that you are standing firm and not being moved.

    Then, WHAM! The full truth hits you upside the head like a 2x4.

    Because sometimes that's what it takes to wake us up and make us see that we are in error, that we need to repent and get right so that we can truly not be moved.

    A house built on the Rock is not a summer home. It is not a hotel that we go visit once in a while. It's where we make our stand, it's where we live and breathe, no matter what anyone does to us.

    It's where we will not be moved.

    We have been called to action, to love and go forth into the world to be His salt and light. We are to grow fruits of the Spirit, not rottenness. We have not been called to be moved by the wicked things that tug on us each and every day.

    Just something to think about.

Wednesday, 22 July 2009

  • My Darling Groom

    Today it's not as sunshiney as it has been, inside or out. But one constant ray of brightness God put in my life is my husband. I just wanted to take a moment to say how much I appreciate him.

    God gave me so much when He sent Ken my way. A loving husband, the closest friend I'll ever have, someone to cherish and protect me, yet also let me know when I get out of line. A shoulder to cry on and someone to lean on. Someone to appreciate and shower affection on. After my God, Ken is my everything.

    Thank you, Lord, for the precious gift of my darling groom!

Monday, 20 July 2009

  • I will look to the hills...

    I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.~ Psalms 121:1-2


    Those of you who know me understand what chaos has been thrown at my extended family lately. You know how disheartening it can be if you do not have faith in God, the Almighty, our Provider.

    For the past few days I've begun a blog about this or a blog about that, but felt frustrated because I couldn't put into words what I wanted to say or it would come out wishy washy, etc.

    Then yesterday, after hearing about the death of cousin's husband (young man) and having something else immediately happen to me personally (family gave offense), I felt the despair and bitterness began to creep up in me. I even told a friend that while I understand God has a plan and this is the way life goes, it can end at any time.

    During prayer, God reminded me that I wasn't looking up. I was looking around me and down. He was not there. He's in the hills, He's waiting for me to acknowledge Him and not the bitterness or anger. He was waiting for my reverence and praise of Him, not the continued worship (always thinking about) of the things around me.

    Boy, talk about conviction.

    And then talk about love. His love and goodness. I prayed and repented and cried and loved and worshipped.

    If you feel despair, angst, anger or bitterness...If you feel overwhelmed, tired or stressed...stop yourself and look where your eyes are. I imagine they are not on Him.

    If that's the case, lift your eyes and look to the Hills. He's waiting for you!

Thursday, 09 July 2009

  • Friends are Friends Forever

    Not sure where this is going so bear with me...

    Ya know, I've always thought this song meant eternity, and I'm sure it does, but we are seeing that this can be here in this life too. When God brings together friends of like minds and like hearts, they can remain friends in him forever, no matter the distance or time apart.

    We all feel like we need friends in this life to encourage and uplift us, to exhort us to do the right thing, to grant counsel and share ideas. For fun and for sorrow, we rely on each other to keep us on His path. Friends make life interesting in so many ways. And there are times when we feel alone, friendless. But if God is our God, we shouldn't.

    Why does this mean so much right now? Because my husband and I have been talking about it a lot lately. :)

    Proverbs 17:17 tells us, "A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity."

    Again, here I used to interpret this as a friend will be with you for adversity, and it certainly does mean it. But lately I also see that it means a friend will be with you in the fair weather. True Godly friends may not speak every day (or even months at a time), but they pray for each other continuously, love each other continuously, do not judge and are there for it all. Seeing them and catching up is not a burden, the love is evident for your friend. And as long as God is their God--their closest friend--I believe He will keep this covenant friendship in this life as well.

    We've all had fair-weather friends, when things are good they are around, but if we need help they scatter like leaves in the wind. But what about those friends who are only there when things are bad for you or them? You want to be part of their daily lives, those fair weather days, yet it doesn't come about. If you are friends like that in the flesh, it can cause feelings of bitterness and feelings of being used, etc.

    My husband and I have been talking for a couple of years now how some of our friends are "adversity friends." And we have been praying for them and will continue to be good witnesses and loving family/friends to them. Yet that connection was no longer there, and we realized that God was moving us in other directions. It took a long time for my faith to get where I said I believed, but thankfully it has. In the meantime I endured some time in the wilderness, feeling alone and battered by the winds of fickle friends.

    The good Lord gave my husband some wonderful friends in co-workers, Godly men who are blessings to both of us. But I seemed to flounder. I felt loneliness and hurt at a lot of things. I remember crying out to God many times. Then He showed me that He wanted me alone for a time so I could learn to rely on Him, to become a friend of His heart so I could hear Him and love Him like I should.

    With His help, I was able to heal and to be there when others needed me without feeling the pangs of hurt and anger and bitterness. Sometimes they rear their ugly heads but I run to my Father, my closest friend and confidant and those feelings disappear in His glory and company. Because of that time alone, I was able to focus on Him alone and experience the intense one-on-one relationship we are meant to have with Him.

    And though I have a lot of things He's working on in me, He has led us (me and hubby) to a wonderful church family and within that family of Christian brothers and sisters, some new and already dear friends. In the process, we have felt a shift away from other friends who are still dear, yet do not understand or do not want to be a part of our walk with God. Even some family members have separated themselves.

    Yet any time my heart starts to cry about it, I am reminded that we are to separate ourselves from the world. And more importantly that we have the most steadfast, most caring and loving and the most awesome friend in our Lord, Jesus Christ. That our very love of Him means that some people may even hate us. Our flesh may have problems understanding but I think that's why we should lean to His understanding and not our own. He knows what He's doing and we should witness His love and glory in all things--including old and new friendships.

    While He is good and just and will provide what we need, no matter how we "feel" we must remember that He is our true friend, and will never leave us nor forsake us. And when we surrender to Him, His love just draws people to you, bringing some Godly friends who will be there with you (at least in heart) in good times and bad! You can perform service for Him in your giving because you have the best of friends as your Saviour. Because of that love we can be with Him forever.

    In addition to new friends, He's bringing "old" friends back into my life. Friends I believed long gone, but because of our common Godly heritage and background, we are coming back together. We may not speak all the time and we may not share daily life, but I know they are there if I want to chat and the same is there with me. But mostly, because I have faith in Him first, the loneliness is gone. I have all the friends I could want and need in Him, and once I truly realized that He began sending people to fill in the gaps here on earth.

    So, if you're feeling lonely or without friends, I highly encourage you to sit and talk to God. Pour your heart out to Him and allow Him to fill in the loneliness and sorrow. He wants to be first in your life in all things, including friendship. Put your words and faith (that He is your everything) into action. He may just want to have some alone time with you right now so that you can be together forever!

    And to my friends here on earth, I love you!

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